When I had woken up in the morning, I didn’t want to check my whatsapp because I just wasn’t in a good headspace. Over the previous few days, and after finding out the news yesterday; a bitch, who I should’ve stopped working for years ago, literally terminated our work relationship — over mere opinions. I called her out on her lyingness and she literally said, “if you can’t score over 650, you can’t teach here because other teachers in BKK can and students have gotten 630…blah blah blah.”
However, I had already gotten a perfect score in listening, grammar, and almost perfect in reading…but according to her dumbfounded-Thai logic, it all must be on the same test.
If this is the case with the scoring, anyone who gets over 650 can be a teacher of TOEFL iTP.
That’s typical Thai logic.
She doesn’t know about what I do online, the persona I’ve gotten, or anything. She applying a racist, white-people-only mentality saying “you must get this to teach this.” If that’s the case, chemistry teachers can’t be chemistry teachers because they’re not chemists.
I checked my Whatsapp after thinking about a previous Peruvian student I had had, and there it was, her score and elatedness.
“ARSENIO! I GOT 114 OUT OF 120 on TOEFL IBT!”
I quickly posted the score on social media, taking shots at the ignorant Thais….most specifically, the rat-poison I used to work for.
I have never taken TOEFL before, yet she got a 114.
Hmmm, I wonder why that is?
For 7.5 years, Thais have literally put me in a box because the color of my skin. Even after getting results, passing two of their students who had taken the test 66 times and passed it on the 67th…..no thanks given, no pulling aside saying “omg, thank you so much!” They brushed it off like it didn’t even happen, and that’s when my frustration continued to grow because I know those bitches just have it deep-down inside that a brotha can’t do it.
So they invented the most preposterous statement, stating “you need to get this score to be a teacher.”
But what about your white teacher in Bangkok? Has he taken the IELTS? No. Has he proven himself? ABSOfuckinglutely NOT….he’s been denied jobs because he wasn’t good enough to land himself a job at a place I got hired at.
But when mentioned, she completely deviated away from the question, got all bitchy (which she did in January of 2018) and left the chat group, showing me “you’re finished.”
However, her companion knows how good I am, although I can really give a fuck because I know my greatness and don’t need anyone to tell me otherwise. She told me she was crying, which was definitely apparent, and that she didn’t want to terminate the relationship.
After making amends, I told her that I would NEVER work for rat-poison again (her ratchet companion) but this was also a very soft letting-go, too. She just doesn’t know it.
In saying that, this reminded me of the ugly-old Brit who said “I don’t think you’re as good as you say you are.”
The same Thai bitch at New Education World who wanted to test me in SAT and see if I can write — again, how does a reading portion of a completely different test indicate that I’m good or not good in writing is THAI LOGIC.
Having that photo and getting that respond was the greatest fuck you in all of mankind, and I’m so grateful that I’m able to continue getting better. This was to prove no one wrong but myself. It’s hard letting meaningless opinions, which is frankly cancer, make it’s way into my subconscious mind. But that score destroyed the self-doubt of me. “Can I really do this? Can she really attain this score?”
And you can do it.
Stop letting the negative cancerous opinions of broken mindsets become your reality.