Thinking With A Clear Mind

Boy, back-to-back emails changed the trajectory of staying in Thailand.

Now, were these two important jobs? One was a blessing in disguise and my EGOISM took control of my thoughts.  The second one was beyond infuriating with ignorant ass women demeaning me for the third straight time, resulting in a FULL RESIGNATION of all services with them.  I mean you can only tolerate so much, right? And for someone to continue to say “oh, this won’t work” when I put in so much work, I can no longer work with assholes like that.  Period.

Sometimes we make hasty decisions and stuff.  There are times that thinking impulsively can ultimately doom everything you’ve ever worked for, but money isn’t even worth the headaches I’ve experienced with suck ass contracts and uppity banks.  It just isn’t. Remember the 80/20 rule with Tim Ferriss? Which job is costing you 80% of your unhappiness? I’ve got a bunch of different jobs, and one of them, which was a babysitting jobs, was unacceptable.  To have little kids sitting on their phones, disrupting the class, and two other individuals completely out of their minds on the other end…it’s not worth 40$.  It just isn’t.

However, that same job and class said the like the new teacher.  I laughed, because my ego got the best of me.  I always believe that I’m better than the sex tourists…and I still believe that today.  Then again, when I heard students liked someone else more than me, I took it personal, as I always have in the past.

This could’ve been the biggest and best blessing in disguise, but I still took it personal.

Then, there’s the email that I was demeaned for the um-teenth time by women.  One woman, who hasn’t spoken to me in three months, said, “you had those games last time. You need to create new games.”  One, that’s a lie.  All the games are new.  Two, you haven’t spoken to me in three months because you’re still acting like a petulant child.  When I saw that…I said, “enough is enough. I’m so under-valued by these women and I just can’t take it anymore.”  I literally sent a resignation message and blocked her.

So, was I overreacting with this? Not necessarily.  I’ve actually been wanting to do that for a while.  Now, it comes down to just one job.  There’s a lone job that’s “probably” going to offer me a position, but the chances of it happening and plummeted significantly.  The second full-time job is the same job where the women completely took me out of three classes.  THREE!  “This student wants to learn with a Thai teacher; these students are happy because they like this pedaphile of a teacher; and these two students want another teacher.”  I mean, this happened at New Education World (the dog house of a language center) a few times in one year (and that was extremely high).  This happened to me within a 4 day period.  Does that show that this potential full-time suitor of a language center has sustainability? Absolutely NOT.  It’s basically given at anytime, they would remove me from teaching a class and give it to another teacher.  These are two (and was) 400 baht an hour (13$ an hour) jobs.  Jobs that pay more don’t have the ridiculous shenanigans take place like that.

Gary Vee’s Infamous – And Then?

Well, am I thinking clearly? No.  Today I suffered a massive failure, so the best way to make any decisions is by first relaxing and then ironing out the details of each specific situation.

Is it really that bad? Well, depends.  It could get ugly.  I will never work at the place that has taken my classes from me ever again. If I don’t, will the 2nd full-time potential suitor give me a full-time job? Probably not.  So that’s gone.

So basically there’s one job.  That job which I’m doing all the paper work for has come to through or I’m absolutely FINISHED with Thailand – and I say that with a great smile.

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